My last remaining Brother in Law on Bill's side of the family died early this morning. Oh, how I am going to miss him. He was the last of the older generation of Becks. That means that Mike, Tonie, Victor, and Kimberly are now the older generation of Becks. The oldest living Beck is now Stanley and he's not that much older than I am. Scary! Van was a wonderful guy, a great husband and father, grandfather, uncle, brother, brother-in-law, and friend. He was 99 years old and would have turned 100 in Jan. so most of his friends and all of his brothers were already gone. But those of us who knew and love him will surely miss him. It's especially hard haveing him go so soon after Bill, which is a constant pain and emptiness. But I am so happy that they will be together again. Van's first wife died many years ago, so I know that he is glad to be with her again too. I just pray for his sweet wife, June, remaining here. May God bless and comfort her at this time and always, and may she know how much she is loved by those of us that know her. Dear Brother Van, I am going to miss you so.
I find myself in that strange position of being single. Not only single but "Widowed", I hate those words. And I hate being alone. However I do love living in AZ and I love all our children and grandchildren and great-grandchildren and great-great grandchildren. How did I ever get sooo old? I also love my brother and sisters and their spouses, especially Christine, my best friend. I have been blessed beyond comprehension and I know that I have been watched over. I feel such love and peace especially on the days I wake up scared and lonely. I'm so grateful for the gospel and my faith in God and Jesus Christ. There would be no sense to life without this.